Still Alive! (Most probably)

This post is to remind the blogworld that im still alive..... suffocating... yes, but still alive.

Early Jan, i had gone to Mahabaleshwar, for a seminar on Neuroscience, photos of which are on photos.yahoo.com/i_am_sudhir_p. U can view the other albums there as well. Some pics with some descriptions are also up on my photoblog.

After that, I had to do all work that i had pushed aside 2 go 2 mahabaleshwar..... killing the rest of Jan.... Then, had to roast my neurons into thinking abt an unanswered question in biology, and possible approaches to solving it. This was for applying for Integrated PhD at NCBS. This ate up most of the time in early Feb.... After which, when tryin 2 relax a bit... came the comments of lecturers that i dont attend classes, and that they wudnt let me apply for the final exam.... Got over them with some gimmicks... wasted 1 whole day payin the application fee (for those who live on a better side of the planet : We have to stand in long queues to fill our fees! A shame for a college in silicon valley!)..... And since life always finds a way to pull my leg...., i had to sit and write 4 practical records almost end 2 end. (I still havent completed it though)

Will be goin 2 kerala tomorrow, for performing rites of mom's 1st yr death anniverary. Wil come back with loads of pics.


Currently listening to : In the arms of the angel - Westlife
Current mood : excited (for reasons not evident from the post!)

A year goes by........

........ but it feels that more than a year has passed. Its not that it was boring, but on the contrary, because it was too eventful.

The year started out pretty normally, with a lot of enthu and fun, and someone occupying my thoughts.

But, when life was pretty smooth, on Feb 15, mom died.... rendering me in a strange mode for quite some time. It wasn't the awfully-sad kinda mode.... it was strange...sad although, but strange......plain strange!

Then the camera entered my life........ making life seem positive. I spent my time clickin away at anything and everything..... making me realize the hidden beauty in 'anything and everything'

And the someone-occupying-thoughts thingy happened more oft. During summer however, a fact jolted my 'occupied' state, that the someone occupying my thoughts, was occupying someone else's thoughts too. I had to force the 'someone' to stop occupying my thoughts. Did some strange things to do so, including forcing someone else to occupy the thoughts.

I started socializing more, trying to do away with the geeky image attached to me. Made quite a few new friends. Ppl figured out that I'm not as scary as they thought i was.

I got a bio project at NCBS. But actually desired a Physics project elsewhere. But as things went on, I felt that I wudnt wanna trade my project for anything......... great project......... great place...... great people.

Began feeling nice about the someone who had newly entered my thoughts.... only for some time. But it seemed, it didnt click.... that person had some probs with it..... Later realized that, it was indeed a strange way things were goin on .........Few weeks.... happy to have thoughts being occupied by no one. Then later realized that I was on the right track...... I actually shudnt have anyone in my thoughts........ coz if it clicked, the future of that person wud be pretty drab.

Went on a college trip to Munnar. (Oh! I havent finished my blog post on that yet!) Enjoyed a lot. This would be the last trip of its kind(No more college after this yr). Became a lot more social person as well (Even a 1% is great thing for one who is at 0.237%).

Won quite a lot of prizes at inter-collegiate fests. (Oops! I was supposed to give parties for this.... which I have almost forgotten abt!)

Project at NCBS goes ahead with a lot of zeal. I also read a lot of interesting books........ novels, science, math and all da crap i could lay hands on.

And with the year almost coming to a close, having no sign of anything spectacular at the end, suddenly, there's this heart pricking me, with someone who's occupying the mind again. But, this time, I just push it out before thinking much. The heart does tingle at the thought of the person, but I am more firm this time round. I have decided to stay alone........... not because of kiddish notions, but because of sheer concern towards that person. And i guess it will remain this way from here on!

Overall, a rollercoaster ride........ I dont regret the bad times....... I like the sour tastes that life feeds me....... and I can enjoy it even if there weren't the sweet bits in between.

Wish all of ya a HAPPY NEW YEAR. And wish me another roller-coaster year.....

Current mood: sullen, yet mellow (probably due to a sadistic impulse)
Currently listening to: King of Pain - Sting

My blog's 1.342-th birthday!

Saw Sangeeta's blog celebrating its 1st birthday, which reminded me that my blog was quite as old too. I went and looked into my first post, which was on August 5th 2004........... Alas! I missed out on celebrating my blog's first birthday! So, the next best thing I could do was to celebrate its 1.342-th B'day.

Had a look at all the stuff I had posted, coasting through times..... some happy ones and some pensive..... some light and many busy ones. I havent been regular in posting stuff, and I am rather happy about that.... it shows that I was busy doin somethin more important!

Anyway, I'm gonna hog something on the ocassion now! And some music as well! Partayy!

Looking forward to my photoblog's B'day as well, which is still faaaaaar away!

Current mood : Partayyyy!
Current music : Life is a rollercoaster - Ronan Keating

SciConfluence

I started a new Sci/tech blog along with Lakshmi yesterday. It will have posts on some discussions and will have a few science news kinda posts. Wanted something of the likes of Sray's Scithought, which he has discontinued for some reason. (I was an ardent fan of that blog. U'll see me on top of the commenters list). I dunno, whether we'll be able to make it as good as scithought, but will sure try.

Here's the link :
http://sciconfluence.blogspot.com

A wierd love story! (true one)

Disclaimer: Any resemblance to anyone alive, dead or dying is purely intentional. (But plz dont sue me!). Some parts of the writing style have been borrowed without permission from Finch. (As in the Automobile Aiy-Ayyos) Dont sue me baby!


There's a beautiful, semi-tender, semi-rugged, non-geek, deeply emotional girl. I'll call her Beautiful Emotional Chick (BEC). There's this guy who is smart, logical and is termed a 'hunk' by many girls. I'll call him Logical Hunk(LH). There's this other jobless guy, who is a love failure, semi-geek, who had a half shot at being a long haired punk, but dropped the idea soon (Yep, thats me!). These are the prime characters of the story. Apart from that, there are quite a bunch of friends hangin around. (I'm a prime part, becoz, dammit, the narrator should be given some screen status!)

LH belongs to a semi-geek gang of friends(GG) (which includes me). BEC gets close to GG and hence with LH and me as well! (I know whatcha thinkin.... no! Its not a love triangle!). One fine day, BEC tells me that she has a deep crush on LH, but is afraid how he'll take it! I, being jobless of course, become the mediator. BEC proposes LH. LH, being logical, of course, keeps thinkin whether to say yes or no, based on pure logic. He tells situation to his dad and mom. Dad and mom get excited.....They accept her.... LH still thinking whether to say yes or no..... GG keeps tryin to tilt answer to 'yes'. LH still thinkin..... They finally go out on a date (That too on Dad's suggestion)... Things start moving. He says 'yes' a bit hesitantly.

LH doesnt have a cellphone. Dad keeps getting more BEC calls for LH than himself. Dad tired of it, and gets LH one. Call durations, sometimes go to 4 hrs per day. LH unable to eat food, sleep, talk, i.e. totally incapacitated. (not becoz of love, but becoz BEC keeps calling whenever he's upto anything). LH thinks he doesnt deserve BEC. BEC thinks she doesnt deserve LH. One fine day, on a date, when LH shows her the lab he's workin in, BEC is awestruck. Amidst this, LH says why he feels that he doesnt deserve her.

Next day, she calls him up, says that she cant continue dating him, because she felt that she didnt deserve him. LH says that its fine if she's breaking up. Both agree to be friends forever. BEC, being emotional, gets hurt by everything he then says, especially, the 'breaking-up' word. But, apparently stays firm on the stance that she doesnt deserve him. LH, being logical of course, proves logically that he has lost nothing. Shares his love story with me, over a coupla plates of Dahi puris and Pani puris (breakin-up party!), laughin at the funniest love story he has seen, and gets over the break-up even before he could realize.

And he planned to live happily ever after












Next day, I meet LH. BEC had called up and told that she didnt want to break up. She did all that only to make him experience the torture she had gone through, when he said that he didnt deserve her.

LH and myself, laugh our hearts out, when I said, "Hmm. So if she did all this to make u feel the torture she went thru...... she must have been laughin over panipuris"



Will update u with more as more shit is definitely to happen between the two. Meanwhile, I'll try to become a more integral part of the story, than just the narrator!

Best part of the story : I got the Dahi puris! A breakin-up party, even though they didnt break up!

Most important role : The geek gang(GG). Of course there's not enough fizz in love without someone to tease u


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Current mood : Calm. Enjoying the cool breeze and the hot winter sun.
Currently listening to : Shadow of the Moon-Blackmore's Night (I've become a huge fan of BN and Renaissance music recently)