Thursday, January 03, 2008

a year that ran by......

..... not that 2007 was very interesting that the moments seemed to fly, but rather, i dont remember doing anything much....... The first few months of the year were happy....... I got new hope, which was more important than the hormonal rushes that accompanied....... Even in the work front, everything was steady.....

Things were going strong until midyear...... June...... Hope shattered...... hormones flushed....... No major purpose in life...... Blogged a lot in agony..... Work progress was halted....... Was continuously recovering from the stupid state for months...... I didnt find any point in life..... For a while, work went zooming ahead, because i used to put in days and nights into it trying to hide my mind from thoughts......

In september, i started preparing for the Bangalore Ultramarathon....... The training was behind schedule, but i wanted a stiff goal...... Something i can struggle and reach, but not a guaranteed success...... Much of the training, inspiration and knowledge on running are thanks to Runners for Life (RFL), which is an amazing group of enthusiastic runners

At work, i was now disinterested, my talents werent being used...... New co-boss was irritating and picking at me..... I had almost decided to chuck it....... Then suddenly, i get a new partner to work with.... He's a cool guy who is 1) a python programmer like me 2) can easily understand and argue back on anything that i say 3) has the 'do it now' attitude....... Work scene changed....... Now im doing things im better at and have someone to share with...... Have minimised interaction w new co-boss......... Completely happy giving all the time to work now....

And yeah! I ran 78 km at the Bangalore Ultra! Probably, the only thing i can be proud of in the whole of 2007

Hope that the coming year turns out better.

Current mood: lost in thought
Currently listening to: Dance alone - Sting

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

sure enough maga.. happy new year.. have fun ;)

Srikanth K S (ಶ್ರೀಕಾಂತ) said...

I am being direct here, as always I am. You have not indentified the thing exaclty (in the post)that made you think life worth living after 2nd para. "RUN" seems to give it a lot of promise... but what is behind exactly?

Point2, new proflike matters must be trivial.. if not, then you must chuck it. Holding, just banking on someone can only be temporary and insecure (if it is not secure).

If this is too much open then del this comment and we shall talk 1 to 1 ..

Sudhir P said...

We should talk it 1 to 1 mostly.

I think i;ve gotten over new prof issue. I am now banking on no one. I just need someone to share ideas with in my workplace, thats all. Someone who appreciates the insights i might have on some problems at hand. That.... i recently got, and he's gonna stay for quite a long time to come.

I've learnt now, not to be emotionally dependant on anyone. And in that sense im no lonfer banking on anyone, not even folks at home